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mokie_edomBe warned! This one is more than slightly disturbing.
I dreamt that an older boy in my family was trying to persuade a younger boy to molest a girl sleeping on a nearby couch. The young boy did, and while he was acting on the girl the older boy acted on him. An adult male (in the dream, I was this person) came in and acted on the older boy at this time. Later, the older boy disappeared as the dream replayed, and it was simply the adult attempting to persuade the younger boy to act on the girl.
I don't think it went any further than attempted persuasion in the replay.
An adult male relative found out about this, got upset, and confronted the man. The would-be molester lied and told him that he was worried the boy might be gay, which upset the unknown relative so greatly that he did not pursue the matter further or tell anyone else what he'd seen.
Notes and explanatory details
It took two years to make this even semi-public, and it's still very disturbing to me. Part of that is, of course, my perspective in the dream as the adult molester, but part of it is that it also echoes an accusation of molestation made within the family several years ago.
#1. Shadows fell conveniently over the kids' faces in the dream, and I felt I didn't recognize any of the children in the dream as children in my waking life, though in dream logic they were "miscellaneous relatives." However, several would correspond to children named in the aforementioned accusation, so I find it hard to believe that there is no connection at all between the dream children and the real children, as hard as it is for me to admit.
Perhaps they were simply shadowed out in the dream to stop it from being disturbing on an even greater level?
#2. The unknown relative and his inaction stuck in my mind. Was he so upset and confused by what he saw that he would grab onto any excuse, would let himself be so easily manipulated? Or was it really fear that the boy might be gay, that he would let this act of molestation slide if it disproved that?
In all of the dreams lately in which I am in the wrong or the bad guy--here, the bookstore, the girls at the park--there is a chance to call me on my actions, and that chance goes unnoticed. People are willing to overlook my wrongdoing or make/accept excuses for it, or just keep their mouths shut. The overall message seems to be to take responsibility for my life in a bigger sense, to stop shirking it, but each dream also seems to have its own specific baggage to it.
#3. A year or two ago, I would very much have taken this as one of my anti-male dreams, and I'm still not entirely sure, given the content and the possible symbolism, that it's unconnected. The Two Men who were the villains of these dreams did become two boys in subsequent dreams; here two boys are trying to hurt a girl, but instead of being the victim, I am the one victimizing.
It reminds me of the way the Two Men later became one, and how they were shown to be the same individual as the protective figure of the Black Lady in later dreams. Maybe there is something in that false dichotomy that I still need to overcome.
I dreamt that an older boy in my family was trying to persuade a younger boy to molest a girl sleeping on a nearby couch. The young boy did, and while he was acting on the girl the older boy acted on him. An adult male (in the dream, I was this person) came in and acted on the older boy at this time. Later, the older boy disappeared as the dream replayed, and it was simply the adult attempting to persuade the younger boy to act on the girl.
I don't think it went any further than attempted persuasion in the replay.
An adult male relative found out about this, got upset, and confronted the man. The would-be molester lied and told him that he was worried the boy might be gay, which upset the unknown relative so greatly that he did not pursue the matter further or tell anyone else what he'd seen.
Notes and explanatory details
It took two years to make this even semi-public, and it's still very disturbing to me. Part of that is, of course, my perspective in the dream as the adult molester, but part of it is that it also echoes an accusation of molestation made within the family several years ago.
#1. Shadows fell conveniently over the kids' faces in the dream, and I felt I didn't recognize any of the children in the dream as children in my waking life, though in dream logic they were "miscellaneous relatives." However, several would correspond to children named in the aforementioned accusation, so I find it hard to believe that there is no connection at all between the dream children and the real children, as hard as it is for me to admit.
Perhaps they were simply shadowed out in the dream to stop it from being disturbing on an even greater level?
#2. The unknown relative and his inaction stuck in my mind. Was he so upset and confused by what he saw that he would grab onto any excuse, would let himself be so easily manipulated? Or was it really fear that the boy might be gay, that he would let this act of molestation slide if it disproved that?
In all of the dreams lately in which I am in the wrong or the bad guy--here, the bookstore, the girls at the park--there is a chance to call me on my actions, and that chance goes unnoticed. People are willing to overlook my wrongdoing or make/accept excuses for it, or just keep their mouths shut. The overall message seems to be to take responsibility for my life in a bigger sense, to stop shirking it, but each dream also seems to have its own specific baggage to it.
#3. A year or two ago, I would very much have taken this as one of my anti-male dreams, and I'm still not entirely sure, given the content and the possible symbolism, that it's unconnected. The Two Men who were the villains of these dreams did become two boys in subsequent dreams; here two boys are trying to hurt a girl, but instead of being the victim, I am the one victimizing.
It reminds me of the way the Two Men later became one, and how they were shown to be the same individual as the protective figure of the Black Lady in later dreams. Maybe there is something in that false dichotomy that I still need to overcome.
