Meta: Sad, sad otaku mokie...

[mokie_edom]

Sometimes when I am sick, I have repetitive dreams in which I'm doing neverending math problems or playing games and getting nowhere. I think I'm close to finishing the algebra problem in front of me, but it further complicates; I find a crack in the logic problem, but that only causes chaos elsewhere; I try my strategy but still, curse the luck, cannot get any more pale green on the Slay world map.

One thought is that the dreams are about patience. The mental solution in the dreams is always just a little bit ahead, just a little bit out of my grasp and my sight, and all I can do is forge ahead. In waking life, I'm sick and I can't do much more about it than drink my tea and wait it out.

It could be simpler still. This could be my brain's little busy signal, a sort of test pattern: "Please be patient, mokie is experiencing technical difficulties."

Last night, after falling into bed with much coughing and miserableness, I had another repetitive sick dream. This one took a less common but equally frustrating pattern, that of sisyphean sorting. Before bedtime I had just finished organizing and posting for eekers a list of the anime I watch; after laying down I spent seven hours shuffling titles, reorganizing them, changing plot descriptions, looking for missing titles, and on and on...

True, it was on my mind before bedtime, but urf. I'm still exhausted, but now I'm worried that I've become a little obsessive in my viewing habits...